Anonymous

I live in NYC, and often seem to be looked upon as a non-entity. Many times I have stood on line to purchase items in a store, and upon getting to the counter I am looked through and beyond to the person behind me by the person at the register. This gesture seems to signify that they will help the person behind me. I am straightforward in telling the counter person that I am standing in front of them and that I was next in line to which they often act surprised.

Why does that happen every so often? Am I invisible? Or do some want me to be invisible? Perhaps they think if they treat me as such, I will cower and not say anything so that they can continue with their disrespect towards me?

But lo and behold, I speak up. And then I am no longer invisible, and the counter person snaps into an air of realization that they have a live one who will not be subversed into an abyss. And then I am served in the fashion to which I am accustomed, and have just trained that counter person in the art of treating me: with the ultimate respect.

I then take my purchase, and leave. I will often revisit events like this and contemplate why someone would be so nasty. Why would someone who didn't know me try to hurt my soul by being so blatantly disrespectful, and wonder what purpose does being disrespectful serve to their spirituality other than to diminish it?

But then I leave the thoughts as the events that made me contemplate are inexplicable other than to describe them as hate-filled, and leave it at that.

I am a person of worth and dignity and when hateful people sniff that out, they will try to chip away at what they see and want but can't have as they are evil and nasty. With these thoughts I can get through every day life. I am a person of worth and dignity.